With all the changes that started to happen outside, I started to feel changes within me. I didn't have the same passion when I went to work. I enjoyed being with my students, but as soon as they disappeared, I felt lost. Disillusionment and doubt began to take over me. I felt that what I had dreamed so much and was experiencing someone had taken it from me. I started to open up to the possibility of having to move, I didn't want that feeling to grow within me.

She was hired from year to year and I remember that the places came out for the following year. Normally, the people we were, we came back to do the job interview to clarify the points and we were back on the table the following year. That year, with the new address in addition to having the interview, we had to make a letter of motivation. What was I gonna wear when I wasn't even motivated? I didn't want to lie and I didn't feel energy to say anything. A school partner told me that she could not throw the towel, that she would help me turn it around during the next school year, that my place was there and that she would help me see the light and motivation. We wrote together the letter of motivation, I conducted the interview and the answer I received was: You will not be in staff for next year, there are other better qualified people than you.

WHAT?!!! I was blocked, I couldn't express word, or emotion at the time. I got up when I could and minutes later I broke up crying. Although I was not motivated, going to work, I recognize how valid I am and everything I give every minute with my students. I felt that wasn't a sincere answer and it hurt. A cycle that closed and before me it seemed that everything would collapse. How I was going to keep holding my rent, my life... I had no plan B.

At that moment, an angel appeared, a companion who through his look, his smile, his breath, his words, his energy. He told me everything. 😳

I keep telling you soon...